DART THE LOVE. re-posted. dated 09/7/08

solitude.

phantom of disguising mask. is this me?  ...blank... As for once i thought I am, I will be feeling this way. now, as the clock ticks will you feel for ME? will you ever hear the gritting cries of endless pain? ...laugh... way too silly. why have you trapped me in this vast yet crouching LOVE? love. too many questions. nevertheless, i know it'll remain unanswered. two years. TWO long years of forgetting, of pivoting the wound, of drying the wet tears. the mem'ry is still CLEAR. as clear as the water. A water that'll be shaken with the thought of YOU. UNFAIR. why? why have you easily SMILED when we first met at the lobby while i was in own self, silently crying,humming the pain,mending the sorrow. YOU had undoubtedly marked the PEAK of my weakness and had never smoked out of my FOOLISH fantasies. i am foolish. as foolish as a li'l child begging for a sweet,tiny CANDY.

 but i won't BEG. never. my SELF told me this when I faced one morning in my bathroom mirror: you are YOU. never lose the SAME YOU. never beg for LOVE nor CRY for love. and dart this into your SOUL:you can never LOVE eternally.

*re-posted. dated 09/7/08